Finding My Laughter Again

"I would not exchange the laughter of my heart for the fortunes of the multitudes; nor would I be content with converting my tears.... into calm. It is my fervent hope that my whole life on this earth will ever be tears and laughter." Kahlil Gibran

Heartbreak is one of the hardest emotions and feelings to let go of and in the course of letting it go, you can discover new things about yourself that you may have never known. Recently, I have felt this painful emotion of heartbreak because of a breakup with my boyfriend. People told me that I would go through the mourning and grieving process which is true. I have gone from crying to anger to crying again. It has become a vicious cycle that I have not found a path off of just yet. There are moments of happiness but laughter has left my life and has not returned. 

In the movie Monster's Inc., you witness that laughter is 10x more powerful than fear and screams. So I am on the search to find this laughter that can bring a smile to my face and begin to reawaken my soul. Laughter and happiness is a key component to a loving life and loving yourself. Each day brings its own struggles but when you wake up in the morning, its a fresh day and a fresh start. So find laughter in each new day!

ReAwakening my Life

"Best is good, better is best" Lisa Grunwald

Lately, I have been struggling in my personal life to find myself and feel the happiness that those around me feel on a daily basis. Originally, I created this blog to reawaken people's creative senses but I want to expand beyond just that and allow people to follow my journey to find my happiness once again. For years, I knew that I struggled with depression but I never wanted to admit this to anyone let alone myself. Lately, I have had the chance to look at myself and my life and realize that my depression has been around since I was a teenager but no one else paid enough attention to see that I was unhappy. 

I know that everyone and their mother has written a book about finding themselves. Some people took trips, some people looked for small, daily ways to make themselves happy but I need to figure this journey out myself. I don't want to allow someone else journey to dictate or influence my journey to much. My journey needs to be my own. There is resentment and anger that I need to let go of, maturity to be grown and happiness to be found. 

So as I travel this path and attempt to find ways to find my happiness and love myself, I will be blogging about things that work and things that don't work. I hope that my journey will inspire someone else to take their own journey to find happiness and self-love.